and so this is it

I have come to conclude that all means well.

     I wish that things could be different in my life, i want things to be something more than they are. I keep trying to find what that or if that is possible. Should i be looking? or thinking?

  I have been told that i should just watch and wait. Look towards the the light, the time will come.


 I hate this feeling of being left behind, is this really real? Nothing feels real anymore. the time has no place in here.

   I'm ready for something real, ive been waiting on something real, to show how i feel. This has yet to come, has yet to overcome me. Did you ever feel i could get this way? We can all make mistakes, and ill show you, show you the ending, of how i really feel. Just look towards the light.


   Do not judge me, don't sit there with your words of  hate. i do not pass my judgement on you.

 fuck the past start living now. Most of you cannot justify this. Why shoud i be the only one?  I want so much more. And i expect so much less. There in lies the problem.